Fast Food is the DEVIL!

Yeah well I decided to wake up this morning and workout....I am going into the New Year working out, instead of starting the New Year working out. Of course this is one of my other brainy ac ideas. None-the-less I am giving up fast foods, again! Not that I really like the food, it's just that I have become lazy in my fat age, and because of that I like the fact I can get in my car, site in a drive-thru line for twenty min's, orders something that I don't know what they've done to, or how long it's been sitting there, after ordering wait in line another twenty min's just to pull up to the window with some pimple headed teenager who can't speak right none the less get my order right (did I mention the attitude they have, like they have a right to have one), and finally when I do get my food, I am shorted fries, tomatoes, ketchup, and other items that I have to site and wait another twenty min's for. Yeah that's real fast and real convenient!

PS except Chick-fil-A....they are still on my list.....and still real fast!
What I can't give it all up at one time!

Nothing Ever Taste as Good as Thin Feels!

Can you tell? Since my so called friends decided it was so got damn funny to circulate this photo I decided to take control of the situation and make fun of myself. Ya see, there were some conditions that contributed to this photo...mainly alcohol. It is obvious that I needed this sandwich since I have all 10 fingers on the sandwich. Me stretching my mouth that big is a gift..ya know what I mean?? I will make my man happy..whenever I get one.

I am warning you bitches...you better not put ANYTHING in your mouth and let me see it because karma is a bitch. And to my so called bff, who caused a disturbance at her office and who almost choked while talking to me on the phone because she couldn't catch her breath because she was laughing so hard...you just wait.

I am a pretty hilarious person and I am so glad I could provide some mid day Monday entertainment.



I am out...peace you wanna be skinny bitches!!

Life is Messy!

What do you do when life throws you a curve ball? Or when you loose all you have, or have ever worked for? Do you sit back and let life pass you by? Or do you take life by the balls and revamp!

I often wonder how I got to the weight I am now. I try to exam ever aspect of where I went wrong, and how I stayed in the dark for so long. I thought about when was the last time I was truly happy about my weight. Then I realized, life is messy! You aren't always going to get what you want, at the time you want it. Nor will things always go your way. God giveth and God taketh away! When he takes, we can't always find our own way to take back. Which is when I realized where my weight came from, and when the last time I was happy.

God took, and I took life back, by getting mad, some may say even.....with cookies, cakes, and ice cream. Ben and Jerry were my new best friends. Mrs. Fields always took care of me, and comfort me when I was hurting or sad. The taste of a fresh baked lemon, pound oh hell any cake made me feel oh so great all over. But I can't forget the convenience of my other friend Wendy. She was always on the block waiting for me, Ronald Mac even made sure I could visit him when I was on a budget. Every so often I ran for the border and found joy in Three Brothers. Ledo would come to visit, and pizza hut too. Chips and dip were always the life of my party, along with all the other food. I often couldn't wait for french fries, and onion rings to arrive. But most of all, I was in love with being in love with them all. Until now! It is time to leave the party and say goodbye to my friends. I am ready to come home.

"When we were kids we saw the life we wanted, we never even realize it wouldn't turn out that way." Life is messy... so enjoy it, one mess at a time. Then damn it, CLEAN IT UP!

50 mins to save your world!

Since I'd like to think I am someone's world in the blog I represent the world......I got on the treadmill last night for the first time in God knows when.....I was only going to do 20mins, cause I told myself I am just starting out and need to take it easy. I put Beyonce's old Cd in and started walking....of course she started off strong so I started off strong....by freak em' dress I was walking on the treadmill like it was my own personal runway. For scene four I accessorized my outfit with two five pounds dumb bells.....I worked that cat walk like it was nobodies business. By listen I had my own concert going, tears and all! Listen talked about listening to your inner voice and allowing that person to guide you to happiness...... she talks about not knowing how she is going to get there but more importantly the fact that she had left herself (selfworth) so long ago. Being free allows you to go where ever your heart desires and once you get your strength it also allows you to have the "best life ever"......which brings me to the last song....the remix...."get me body" This was my grand ending! I walked that runway like I knew I had stole the show! I was a star last night (in my basement on my treadmill). I had done it....before I knew it 50 mins had gone by, I was that much closer to saving my life and that much closer to being free, free from over eating, being over weight, and not being happy with myself!

After my performance, I took a shower and went to sleep, I had "earned my money" and I was pooped....I had worked the runway so well that I couldn't get up this morning for my "real" paying job! Boy was I late!

Back to reality I guess....but I was a star last night!

The Wake up call

After reading this article about heart disease, I started to think. I always known I gained weight mostly in my upper body more the lower body, but in this article it states that people like me have a 40% higher chance of getting heart disease because of all the fat around our hearts. Also by 2010 this will be one of the leading causes of death here in America and by 2030 it will the number one cause of death. Now if that aint a wake up call I don't know what is!


This is not about loosing weight anymore....this is about saving my life!

So far, so good

I have started off the day with cereal and milk. I brought my lunch in today. I feel good about today. I am determined to exercise for a minimum of 30 minutes today.

I will keep you posted.

The Truth About FAT!

When your having a fat day what do you do? Is it safe to say we just let it all hang out, eat the pain away, or say this is the day I'm going to do something about it! Yeah right, you just eat your pain away, and then let it all hang out the next day.

So we went out last night to celebrate my BFF's birthday, and the bread at this place was to die for......I mean I couldn't stop eating it! I was already having a fat day (yes FAT not PHAT). I had tired on three pair of jeans that if I could get them up my thick thighs I couldn't get them button, so I retreated to old faithful and called it a night. ( I realized that I am at the stage now in my fat where I have to pretry on my outfitt before making my selection). That bread was just so damn good though which is why now I am going to my nephews birthday party with some sweat pants and a t-shirt and just let it all hang out. Tomorrow is a new day and that will be my breaking point, but I will say.....when we was standing outside in the cold, after attempting to go to this club, cause we wanted to try and hang out and not look so fat and old, and we got stranded cause the cop told us there would be cabs in those parts (NE to in the meat packing district...yeah I should have know he was lying my dad had always told me that place shuts down at 5pm) and when there wasn't we stood on the corner looking like $2.00 whoes.....I wasn 't even cold.....guess the fat came in handy last night......it kept me warm all over......OSB in effect!

The Scale Down

I got on the scale this moring and to my surprise running for the train every morning has paid off.....I didn't loose much but I am at a nice even number now.......maybe this will be my motivation to get my butt up next week and workout! Well, we are going out this weekend to celebrate my best friends birthday.....this should be real interesting cause we both like good food and lots of it......(she is reading this and I know she is cursing me out right about now! LOL) I will tell you if we had self control or not........

I love blogging

I have sent this post via my cell phone. Isn't technology amazing. I can help you set your phone up to do this as well.

I figured it out

I finally heard the alarm clock, and I got up.....the only problem is I didn't stay up. I went to the bathroom, and went right back to bed. Oh did I tell you that yesterday I had ice cream and cookies (by myself thanks to Simone who wouldn't eat with me). Yeah tomorrow is a new day.....good thing I had to walk from my car to the metro.....I did run for the train today too....does that count as exercise?!?

Brownie Cookie Bars

Let me tell you, Makina...these damn brownie cookie bars have added an additional 10 pounds to my ass and 5 inches to my waist. ATTN: ALL SR MEMBERS...do not introduce any new desserts to the book club meetings. Apple Pie only...I don't crave apple pie. But I crave anything that is gooey, chewy, and chocolaty.

Since the last book club meeting I have consumed two boxes of that shit...not by myself..Beulah helped out. Then Micah called me out in the grocery store..he was like "how many boxes are you buying"?

Makina this is all your fault and I loved every bite.

Another Day Another Alarm!

As you can see, I struggle with this alarm thingy! Of course I set my alarm for 5:25am, and of course I heard it this time. BUT..... because I, once again, got a burst of energy from 10pm-12:30am I didn't get in the bed until around 1am. Hence is why, I was so tired when I finally heard the alarm but set it on snooze twice, and then just finally turned it off and then over slept! Yeah-I have been off to a great start!

This is so damn hard!

Why come!.....EVERYTIME I say I am going on a diet, I set my clothes out, or I plan to workout, something comes up! I am not understanding. I set my alarm for 5:30am to workout and I don't hear it til 6:15; I take my clothes to work to workout, then something comes up; or I have a meeting with free good food that I can't stop eating. Which is what happened today. I couldn't help it, it was so good and that bread (one of my weakness) was so soft and buttery! What's a girl to do. Tomorrow's a new day.

Lunch time

How come whenever you start a diet; you fix this nice healthy lunch, small salad, tuna, orange, water and some nuts; and right at the height of your hunger you have to go into a meeting, they talk about going out to lunch, and then your face with do I start my diet today or tomorrow....I mean I've already missed my morning workout, and I am hungry as hell, plus where their going sounds good, and what can it hurt if I start tomorrow...right! Then you wake up... eat your prepared lunch and actually feel good and full. Wow if every day was this easy........LOL

So I am hungry.....like I always am. I had a packet of oat meal and two glasses of water. How am I suppose to get through this if I am always hungry! I am thinking of going downstairs and getting a muffin! That will make me full.

So I set my alarm to get up and workout this morning. I am not understanding this but why come.....every time I try to workout in the am I find everything in the world to do at night and I end up going to bed at like nidnight, 1am and the alarm is set for 5AM!