Life is Messy!

What do you do when life throws you a curve ball? Or when you loose all you have, or have ever worked for? Do you sit back and let life pass you by? Or do you take life by the balls and revamp!

I often wonder how I got to the weight I am now. I try to exam ever aspect of where I went wrong, and how I stayed in the dark for so long. I thought about when was the last time I was truly happy about my weight. Then I realized, life is messy! You aren't always going to get what you want, at the time you want it. Nor will things always go your way. God giveth and God taketh away! When he takes, we can't always find our own way to take back. Which is when I realized where my weight came from, and when the last time I was happy.

God took, and I took life back, by getting mad, some may say even.....with cookies, cakes, and ice cream. Ben and Jerry were my new best friends. Mrs. Fields always took care of me, and comfort me when I was hurting or sad. The taste of a fresh baked lemon, pound oh hell any cake made me feel oh so great all over. But I can't forget the convenience of my other friend Wendy. She was always on the block waiting for me, Ronald Mac even made sure I could visit him when I was on a budget. Every so often I ran for the border and found joy in Three Brothers. Ledo would come to visit, and pizza hut too. Chips and dip were always the life of my party, along with all the other food. I often couldn't wait for french fries, and onion rings to arrive. But most of all, I was in love with being in love with them all. Until now! It is time to leave the party and say goodbye to my friends. I am ready to come home.

"When we were kids we saw the life we wanted, we never even realize it wouldn't turn out that way." Life is messy... so enjoy it, one mess at a time. Then damn it, CLEAN IT UP!