Thursday, January 8, 2009

AND THE FIGHT CONTINUES!

I have worked out four days this week....this morning was HARD! Really HARD, but I did it. I got up laid around thought about going back to bed but then got on the treadmill and decided I wouldn't workout hard today. And now, NOW I HAVE AN ATTITUDE! not really sure why though, was it because I am sore now, cause I really just wanted to sleep but needed to workout, or was I really upset at myself for getting to the point where I have to workout everyday in order to help myself achieve this goal. I can't wait for the day where I am in maintenance mode! Until that day....TODAY I am going to have an attitude....at least until I realize the fact that skinny girl won, and skinny girl made fat girl get up and workout. So, fat girl is really the one with the attitude, not me.

1. What are you really hungry for?

When my life is out of control and unbalance I know I seek some way of gaining the control back....or gaining control. So I guess I hunger for control.
2. Why are you overweight?
When I am lost I find it liberating to eat whatever I want and dare someone to say something to me. I over eat in comfort and I snack for company. I love the taste of good sweet foods, and it makes me feel good when I eat it. I honestly feel at peace when I eat ice cream and cookies, or apple pie and ice cream.
3. Why have you been unable to maintain weight loss in the past?
I haven't figured out how to ask for help when my life is out of control, I hide when my life is unbalance and I put a wall up and wont let anyone in, or see me. I HIDE BIG TIME! and that's the honest to God truth.
4. What in your life is not working?
I have to stay busy doing positive things, working, hanging with family and friends.
5. Why do you want to lose weight?
Because it's time, because I want to be healthy, because I want to have a family, and because I want to be around for my friends and family.

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